Thursday, June 30, 2016

Back to Blogging

Its been a few years since I updated this blog. My apologies

So much has changes in those years and I find myself lately needing an outlet to express a lot of the feelings and emotions I have been experiencing.

Since it’s been so long since I updated this blog, I will assume everyone here is new, including myself!

My name is Brooke and I am forever 30 years old.  (I'm actually 33...eeeek)

                                                             (Just plain ole Me)

I am a proud mother of 3, beautiful, smart but mischievous children. My oldest, J,  is 15, our middle,M,  {only daughter} child is 10 and the baby, L, of the family is 9. I have a very supportive and loving husband, Jason. We have been married for 12 years. You’ll see him pop in from time to time to post his own shenanigans. (Honestly guys, He’s super funny!) We currently have 1 dog named Jake who runs the neighborhood like he works for the CIA.


In the years since I last posted, I have been in school 1 semester then dropped. Went back to school for 2 semesters and dropped again. (Stupid I know! But there is more to the story) I lost 0 pounds but certainly picked up more than a few!  

I will start with the last 2-3 years. When I last posted we lived a pretty normal kind of boring life where my biggest concern was losing a bit of weight. Shortly after I stopped blogging altogether, my husband lost his job of 12 years. It was a complete and total shock. We lost our home, insurance, and a slew of other things. I watched as my children missed out on things we had always been able to provide for or give them. Christmas and their birthdays were always in my opinion sad because I couldn’t give them what they wanted and a lot of times what they needed. I thank our family immensely for their help in every step of this new and scary journey.

        (Christmas Tree Lighting)

I made a choice to get back into college and finish my degree. I tried to persuade Jason to do the same. I knew he would do well because he is super smart. He was against it. He felt like he should be out in the world working and I understood that. But I felt like we would just come back to being in the same place of him losing a job. I knew college could give him a career. Eventually he came around to it.   We started school in August 2014. This went well our first semester.

I only went for 2 semesters. During my second semester (April 2015) my Uncle, the man who raised me and taught me everything I know about everything in this world passed away very unexpectedly from a massive heart attack. It broke me. I am still not the same and wonder daily if I ever will be. I have a father and I love him dearly. 

                                   (My Daddy)

But my uncle was the person who took me to school every day as a child. He was the one at every basketball game, every softball game, every cheer event no matter where the game was. The person who always took care of me when I was sick or having a bad allergy day. He understood me like no one else besides my husband and my mother ever have. In my eyes he was a saint. Nothing will ever fill the void in my heart. 

            (Me and my Uncle when I was a baby)                                                            (M and her Poppy at his last recital)


Jason continued on in school. At the end of his first year, he knew what company he wanted to work for. He made contacts at the company and talked to his advisor about his interest in that company. When the company came to speak to the students in his second year they already knew his name and look for him to have a conversation about his possible employment. He and I were so excited! Before the semester was over they contacted him and offered him a job.

                                                                                                (Jason Working)    

I am still a troop leader and we have a ton of girls in our group! (For privacy reason I cannot name any of the girls without their parent’s direct permission) My daughter started as a Daisy and is now a 1st year Junior She likes everything about girl scouts except selling cookies. Her sales for this year show it too. She sold door to door a couple times and worked maybe 2 or 3 booths. As a leader I feel like I’m still a newbie and have a lot to learn. I do love my girls with my entire heart.
For the most part I love being a Girl Scout leader. There are certain times of the year that are stressful but that is to be expected. But every ounce of stress is worth all the “Mrs. Brooke Guess What?’s and the “Mrs. Brooke, I have to tell you something” and of course the “Mrs. Brooke, Look what I made for you”. I love the girls in my troop so much! When we are camping I am that over-protective leader who is scared of everything going wrong and disappointing my Girl Scouts.

 (This is my daughter, one of my Best Friends and I)

Just a few more Pictures before I go. 

Thank you for reading my blog! There will be more to come! :) 


Sunday, July 21, 2013

Long Time, No Talk

Hello Blog Land, it’s been a while!
Life is crazy and messy. Just when you think you’re traveling in the right direction, life seems to throw a dead end in there. Needless to say, the past few months have been rough.

I have made no progress on losing weight or living a healthier lifestyle. I keep waiting for some big event to “shake” me into wanting to exercise and change my life. But if I would really take the time to reflect on each day, there are plenty of game changers. For instance, My brother in law and his family are visiting from Utah, and on Monday we went to the NC Zoo. It was very very HOT, the last time I checked the weather at around 3pm that day it was 90 degrees. Jason tracked out steps with an app on his phone. We walked 5 miles! 5 MILES!!!!!! BAM, there’s my foundation to keep up the physical activity. BUT, I was too busy complaining about how hot it was to realize “Hey, I just walked 5 milesand I SURVIVED”!
I think I just need to get off my lazy butt and do SOMETHING, ANYTHING. Even just Walking around my house 3 times has to be better for me than sitting inside watching reruns of Psych or Monk (damn you Netflix!).
I vow to be more active this week.

*Goals for this week*
Monday-Week1 Day1 of C25k
Tuesday-Walk (at least the distance I ran the previous day)
Wednesday-Week1 Day 2
Friday-Week1 Day 3

I am so tired of not dealing with this problem. I can try to brush it off but it’s just going to keep coming back and unless I take the necessary steps it’s never going to change. A few months back I felt about the same way I do right now and I reached out to a friend who had recently started running and getting some great results. She would send me encouraging messages on Facebook and she would text me to see how I was feeling. She offered to come run with me. She did everything she could to help me but I wasn’t willing to help me. {Thanks Jo!}
Typing that out just now hurt. I can not believe I let that happen. I’m a mom. Those kids look up to me for guidance. What kind of example am I leading?
As I’ve said before, I can’t change yesterday but I can change tomorrow, today and right now.

I need to work on a play list that will keep me pumped while I’m running. If you have any suggestions, please email me, or message me on Facebook.

Thanks for reading my blog! Hope you have a great Monday!!!!

Love, Brooke

Friday, May 3, 2013

It's Friday

Thank. The. Lord. 

I don't have a traditional job. I babysit for a family member Monday-Friday and I pick up one of my daughters friends after school and keep her until her Mom gets out of work. 

My typical weeks look like this...

Babysitting 8am-6pm
                Girl Scouts 5:30 pm-7ish

 Babysitting 8am-6pm
                  After School pick up 3pm-4:30
                  Dance class 5:30pm-7pm

 Babysitting 8am-6pm
                       After School 3pm-4:30pm
                       *some Wednesdays the kids go to Youth at Church 7pm-8-8:30pm*
Babysitting 8am-2ish (most days he stays longer)
                   After School 3pm-4:30 pm
                      Dance class 6:45pm-7:15pm

Babysitting 8am-2ish (again, most days he stays longer)
             After School 3pm-4:40pm

During sports seasons, like soccer , baseball, cheerleading, ect., the kids have practices and games throughout the week on top of our normal stuff. Those are the days I need 2 or 3 clones. Sometimes they just have to miss a practice or game or dance class. Let's face it, I'm only 1 woman and as I tell my children daily, I'm not a magic maker!! 

The point to tell you all that is this, Jason and I are going to an out of town wedding tomorrow and we're spending the night!!!!! I feel like a kid on Christmas, I am soooo excited!!!!! I love my children dearly and as soon as we're gone and I've slowed down I'll miss them like crazy but sometimes Mama just needs a break!!!  

I love Weddings! Like LOVE! Like, If I had a bit more confidence I would totally be a wedding crasher! I love seeing all the decorations, the dress, the bridesmaid dress, the look on the grooms face when he sees his bride for the first time, the feeling of real love in the air when they're dancing for the first time as partners, the tears rolling down the Father of the Brides face as he gives his baby girl away. I could go on and on.  

So I'm excited to get away but I'm also excited to just be going to a wedding. It's one of my best friends little sisters wedding. She's a red head like me and I know she is going to be gorgeous!  

I bought a new dress to wear. It's a beautiful dress and the fabric is so comfy but i'm not comfortable with how I look in it. My mom, who is brutally honest, and my husband both love it. I may or may not wear it. I haven't decided yet. I got Jason a tie to match and I bought some finger nail polish to match too. 
Here is a pic of the dress.

I got it at my favorite online boutique Kiki La'Rue. The owner, Becka, is so sweet and giving! She honestly cares about the clothes her clients purchase for themselves and how well they enjoy their purchase. She personally signs EVERY receipt that goes out to her clients. The boutique offers sizes up to 3x, so it's not just for the skinny girls!  

If I'm feeling confident enough I'll post a picture of myself in the dress. (HA)

Happy Friday Friends!! Have a fun & Safe weekend!!!